It's finally December! Wow how time has flown by! Charlotte will be 9 months next week, I have finals this week and next week, and Christmas is almost here! I love the holiday season, it brings me such joy, even when days like today are so stressful I end up crying to half of my family and friends.
I drove all the way to school for no one to show up, and when I say all the way that is an hour each way, plus 15 minutes to get Charlotte from the babysitter! I have been truly blessed by Charlotte's babysitter! Two wonderful family friends watch the little one while I go sit in class for an hour and talk about our final projects and how they are coming along. I normally have class, except today no one decided they wanted to show. Well after being pissed off because I drove an hour up to school I was on my way back when my engine light came on in the car. I'm an hour away, my husband is 10 hours away at work and my mom is at the doctor with my dad. I try to remain calm (Which is very hard for me haha) and pull over at a gas station and turn the car off. Normally that works. However this time it didn't. I kept driving because I needed to get to Charlotte and get home and I once more stopped to check the gas tank to make sure the cap was on tight, because my car loves to kick the engine light on if the gas cap moves an inch. This didn't work either so I hit full panic mode and called just about everyone in my phone. I made it to Charlotte, broke down in front of the babysitter, who since she has known me since I was a kid, calmed me down and told me everything was alright.
Charlotte and I got home safely, she took a short nap, and we watched cartoons. Something about holding my little one helped calm me down. I completely went into relaxation mode and watched cartoons with my little girl and forgot about all my problems, and let me tell you It is Amazing what a little girl can do for the heart, especially my little girl. She is only 8 months old but she feels when I'm upset and she crys when I cry, but sometimes and I don't understand how, she stays calm and knows just what to do to make me smile and keep calm. She knows just what to do to get me to forget the stress and just chill with her. It is truly amazing!
Charlotte is now in bed after a bottle and a book and I went down to check the gas cap one more time, this time completely taking it out and putting it back in and then started the car and GUESS WHAT?!?!! After sitting for four hours and readjusting the cap the engine light is no longer on! HUGE, and I mean HUGE sigh of relief for this mama and a happy dance in the parking lot of my apartment complex. *If people didn't think I was already weird, I just earned that title tonight haha*
Overall, what turned into a stressful day was de-stressed by my 8 month old daughter and my insticts to just keep trying and keep going no matter how hard it got. I'm truly blessed to call Charlotte Faith Wicks my baby girl and my savior in times of need.
One thing that the babysitter told me, "God had a plan today and he knew I could handle it." This is so true and I thank God everyday for what I have and I am very blessed with my life. As much as I cuss, stress, and run around like a crazy person I know he is looking out for me and my family.
This is such a long post, Sorry. It helps to write things out even if people don't really want to hear it :)
XOXO
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